Creating music that talks about my faith in my lowest times feels extremely vulnerable to share. A lot of my writing is fixated on projected humour in every situation especially the traumatic ones. However with my music, the veil is viciously dragged away with no pause and I am left with just me, myself and the mirror. All of it, the loss, the hurt, the abandonment, is poured into my music. A lot of it was written in low times with buckets filled with tears, if that is possible. There I go again with humour even when it is not called for.
There is a thin line between praise and worship songs and singing out your pain to God. When I look at the story of Job I marvel that even in his despair he chose to praise God. Very remarkable stuff.
ReadThe gap the church is facing is the 2am version of a need that social media and mindless games fill. I received an email from Google saying they would not fund my project. In my despair I thought I need to create a space where I can spend time with God and still have that element of games, learning and being in the stillness.
ReadThere is no five-step guide. There are no routines one can prescribe. Anyone who tells you there are steps has never truly experienced the rabbit hole. I call my lowest moments the rabbit hole because sometimes it feels like an endless fall.
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